moab : a short hike to see a view of this vast wilderness
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i cried with joy when i listened to this interview with this beautiful author about her new book...
4.13.2010

democracy now/amy goodman interviewed alice walker today about her latest book.
it sounds so amazing, powerful, and inspiring.
this is just what i've needed.
go here to watch the interview...it's at the end of today's broadcast.
what a beautiful and powerful woman she is. love her.
manifesto monday: facing unsavory realities with hope
4.12.2010

this is one of the more difficult and personal manifestos i've made...it is hard to be bold, honest, and open. i have deeply wanted to share so many things with you, but have been afraid to expose ugly realities here. i am trying to find an empowering way to include all of you in what is most important to me.
ceej and i spend a lot of our free time reading books, watching documentaries, tuning in to the news, listening to scholars and activists, analyzing articles, watching the actions of civic office holders, etc. we feel compelled to be informed and to act according to our conscience.
often, people don't want to hear about what we've learned. it can be uncomfortable to hear about the unfair things in this world. i hear people telling me that they just want to concentrate on the "positive" things in this world, as if i am always doom and gloom.
however, i truly have hope in humanity. i see what a difference one person can make. i see what true joy comes when we face corruption and tragedy with courage, optimism, and action. i see that there are many of us who want to alleviate suffering and greed. we can overcome. but we must be informed. we must take action. i cannot imagine experiencing a fullness of joy unless we have first faced our demons, unless we change ourselves into beings that are awake, deliberate, and compassionate.
i also believe that i cannot change you, and you cannot change me. somehow, we have to come to a place where we are willing to change on our own. this is where my hope comes in. i have hope that people will urge me to be better...even when it is painfully uncomfortable...and that i will hopefully find courage to change. and i hope that somehow those around me will listen to what i have learned, take action, or correct me if i have overlooked something.
if we are to turn unsavory realities into true joys, we must face them. we can and will do so...even if, in the end, we only change ourselves {but if we change ourselves it is hard for those around us not to be changed on some level}. we can find and make beauty in a broken world.
this i believe.
{i would love to know about your cause, about your fight...please inform me on more ways i can change and make a difference}
some recommendations: a documentary about martin luther king, jr.'s 'beyond vietnam' speech, a documentary about corporations, a documentary about food, a documentary about a brave man who changed the course of a war, a book about u.s. history, these may be difficult to watch...but the good news is we can take action and change these things...no matter how big the problems are. let's leave this world as beautiful as we can.
if i asked you to sign a petition, join a voting block, write a letter, or make a phone call...would you do it?
10.01.2009

all of us have causes. all of us have concerns. some dedicate their lives to helping refugees and the homeless. others dedicate their lives and efforts to education and health. can you guess what my cause is? it's the land. it's wilderness. it's mother earth. she is my passion. she is my heart. she can make me laugh. she can make me sigh for days at a time. she can teach me many mysteries. she is not mine. she is her own. if we harm her too much, she will return with a vengeance.
a real-life story. happened last night. ceej and i happily found out that we could view ken burn's documentary on america's national parks via the world wide web (since we are sans tv). the first episode. john muir. we need another john muir to sing the song of the beauty and the importance of wilderness. we are in desperate need of an elegant, passionate, knowledgeable spokesperson for wilderness. after we watched that first episode i was oh so grateful for people willing to fight for the land...which in the end has saved us all. i also cried. because i have not done enough. this is my love, but i have neglected it. resolved to return to my efforts like never before.
this morning full of anxiety. watching a congressional hearing concerning "america's red rock wilderness act." this wonderful act, if passed, would protect 9 million acres of beautiful and important land as "wilderness." i listen to utah senators and other utah elected officials...words are flying out of my mouth: "liar," "manipulative," and "corrupt." my knees are bouncing with anxiety. then, an angel. a representative from another state talks about how much utahns, not elected officials, support this wilderness bill. he tells the truth. he says what the people of utah have said. we want wilderness protected. i have a moment of hope. but, senator hatch and senator bennett then give false information, and twist things to fit their wallets. they talk about how land could help fund education if we don't protect it...since when do they care about education? when the state had a $1billion surplus, the people of utah wanted that money to go to education...well, our reps ignored the people, as usual, and put the money elsewhere--in their pockets and their friends' pockets. they yell and raise their voices to try to prove they are right. breaks. my. heart.
anyway, yes, i'm venting. not very "professional." but, i write all of this because i want to know if my utah friends would take a few moments to call their representatives to tell them they support bill HR 1925 (america's red rock wilderness act). in saying that, know that i will support you and your causes. i know we cannot take on every cause there is. each of us has our passion. i will do what i can to help you. you help me. a community of friends, yes?
i tried to keep this short. wanted to rant more, but realize no one really cares for ranting. thanks for indulging my anxious heart.
photo by cj. harris wash...in utah. 2008.
the obama wars...
6.29.2009
when i finish her book i'll stop quoting her...at least for a bit. but for now i can't get enough...
6.25.2009
she uses an analogy that i thought i had heard too much. but i like it. see if you recognize the analogy..."we should always, especially when it is difficult, exercise our freedom of speech and assembly, and i mean the word exercise. Rights are like muscles: they atrophy and aren't there when you need them if you don't use them. The First Amendment is in trouble not just because of U.S. Attorney General John Ashcroft and the USA Patriot Act, but because of a pall of self-censorship--some have spoken up with great courage, but many have been silenced not only by the acts of the authorities but by the prison of their own fear. Still, if people could stand up to Pinochet, if the Mothers of the Plaza de Mayo could march in Buenos Aires during the time of the generals, if people could speak up in Prague in the 1980s, we can here, far more than we do. An atmosphere of repression exists speicifically because people don't speak up against it. When you speak up, you are not repressed--you might be supressed or punished, but you have freed yourself. Too, a tyranny can rise more easily by shutting up a thousand people than a million, and that's a reason to speak out." -rebecca solnit
rights are like exercise? sound familiar? it should. i hope we all resolve to use our rights daily.
photo by karin nussbaumer
world refugee day
6.18.2009
poor nevada...poor west
photo by me. january 2009. I-80.i am learning so much from Solnit's book of compiled essays. i wanted to tell you what she tells us about mining because i want you to know what it does to the earth and to the people who live near it. hope you find this information useful, and i hope it moves you to action.
~ by 1857, California gold miners had extracted 24.3 million ounces of [gold], but they left behind more than ten times as much mercury, along with devastated forests, slopes, and streams. Today, there's a new gold rush underway on the other side of the Sierra Nevada, and it too is racking up huge bills for the public, bills that will be coming due for centuries to come, bills that we will pay in taxes for restoration, and bills that can never be paid, for pure water, cultural survival, wildlife, and wilderness. (page 115)
~ the California Gold Rush wasn't an anomaly; it was the beginning of modern large-scale gold mining, which is still going on. In America's new gold boom in Nevada, the dimensions are staggering...Nowadays, Nevada produces nearly 10 percent of the world's gold and three-quarters of the nation's...The first big new open-pit mines came in 1965, but it was the rise of gold prices in the 1980s...and the invention of cyanide heap-leaching that made mining such low-grade ore profitable. (page 119-120)
~Gold is now mined on a scale none of those men in the sepia-tone photographs could have imagined, from ore far more low-grade than they could have considered worthwhile. The Mary Harrison mine, which opened in 1853 in Coulterville, near Yosemite, yielded about one-third to one-half an ounce of gold per ton. In 1997, the Toronto-based Barrick Corporation's Betze/Post mine, in the center of the Carlin Trend, mined 159 million tons of rock and earth to produce 1.6 million ounces of gold--about a hundredth of an ounce per ton..."invisible gold" leads to mines that can be seen from space. [talk about extortion!!!] (page 120)
photo by tom schweich~One way to describe modern gold mines is to say that they are displacing earth and water on a gargantuan scale and producing and dispersing toxins in smaller quantities, with gold a proportionally minute by-product of this disruption...in Nevada water is being both contaminated and used up...A deficit of 5 million acre-feet is being created in the Humbolt Basin, 1.6 trillion gallons, the equivalent of twenty-five years of the river's annual flow. (page 121)
after reading her essays on mining in Nevada, i was oh so sad for Nevada. not only is their land and their health being destroyed by mining companies (many who are foreign companies), but they have had to put up with decades of nuclear bomb testing. it is oh so frustrating to me that people think a desert is a wasteland; that there is nothing worth saving there. they are dead wrong. it is a fragile landscape that has intensely beautiful spaces of mountain ranges and sagebrush fields.
it also made me very glad i don't live in the Salt Lake Valley development known as "Daybreak." I've always been suspicious of how that land has been contaminated by the mine that has developed the land. i've also always despised the eyesore of that huge mine. it's ugly. it makes me ill.
and another thing, utah is a place, too, where people think they can dump nuclear waste...and we even named the sports arena after a nuclear waste company: "energy solutions arena." that makes me very ill.
i hope you learned a little something. i hope you want to buy and read Solnit's book. it's got so much varied information about so many important issues. you'll love it. you'll feel more motivated to take action. to make this earth better.
"it's time to take the obama t-shirts off"
6.11.2009
well, as i suspected, obama isn't all he sold himself to be. watch this bill moyer's interview with jeremy scahill. he wrote that infamous book blackwater. it's a fascinating episode. here's a couple exerpts from the conversation:
"Well, I think what we're seeing, under President Barack Obama, is sort of old wine in a new bottle. Obama is sending one message to the world, but the reality on the ground, particularly when it comes to private military contractors, is that the status quo remains from the Bush era. Right now there are 250 thousand contractors fighting the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan. That's about 50 percent of the total US fighting force. Which is very similar to what it was under Bush. In Iraq, President Obama has 130 thousand contractors. And we just saw a 23 percent increase in the number of armed contractors in Iraq. In Afghanistan there's been a 29 percent increase in armed contractors. So the radical privatization of war continues unabated under Barack Obama."
"Well, I mean, we have two parallel realities here. We have the speeches of President Obama. I'm not questioning his sincerity. And then you have the sort of official punditry that's allowed access to the corporate media. And they have one debate. On the ground though, in Afghanistan and Pakistan, you hear the stories of the people that are forced to live on the other side of the barrel of the gun that is U.S. foreign policy. And you get a very different sense. If the United States, as President Obama says, doesn't want a permanent presence in Afghanistan, why allocate a billion dollars to build this fortress like embassy, similar to the one in Baghdad, in Islamabad, Pakistan? Another one in Peshawar. Having an increase in mercenary forces. Expanding the US military presence there."
interesting? the status quo continues. boo. boo. triple boo.
indeed, it is time to take off the obama t-shirts and remove the bumper stickers. it's time to put pressure on our president to end our military and empirical presence in the middle east.
no war is a "good" war.
i'm finally having a good hair day and there's no one to even witness this rare event, and i can't even take a picture because ceej has both cameras
5.30.2009
this is big. i've got j-crew sexy waves today. it only took me four days of patiently waiting.two weeks ago i had 8 inches of my "guinevere" hair chopped. i didn't ask for it. i asked for 4 inches off. no more braids wrapped around my head for a while now. but i've discovered my hair is now east coast, jcrew, "i'm a professional grown-up" length. perhaps people will stop guessing that i'm only twenty-years-old.
though my hair length should now make me look more sophisticated, it might actually only work to my advantage once in a blue moon. here's why: i only wash my hair once every 7-8 days (gasp!). i refuse to use a hair-dryer or flat-iron or anything that will blast my hair with scorching heat. this means i wash my hair, put giant rollers in it, stay inside for one day to avoid being seen, take rollers out after 8 hours, put hair in bun for one day, braid hair for two days. after four days of all this i finally have decent hair.
but no one will see it. ceej is out with the boys this weekend climbing mt. Rainier (a bit of a big deal). i just got off the phone with a longtime, dear friend, and felt confident enought to tell her that i now have 0.5 friends in Sacramento (why 0.5? because i'd like to call her my dearest Sacramento friend, but i'm pretty sure that she only thinks of us as acquaintances. so i'm stickin' to 0.5). My point is this:
how does someone who likes to watch bill moyer's journal for entertainment invite the neighbors over for the latest episode?
how does someone who wants to talk about Mother God one second and cupcakes the next second find people to relate to?
how do i convince people that discussion night is really fun?
in need of Sacramento friends. i admit it. we moved here a year ago, but i've only lived here for 6 of those 12 months. i'm quiet--mostly because i don't want to scare people away with my ranting about re-usable toilet paper, real food, government corruption, and preserving wilderness. sigh. what to do? perhaps i'll start bribing people with those delicious cupcakes. "You're invited to the Whittaker's home for an evening of CUPCAKES and we might just watch a documentary called war made easy. Maybe."
for now, i'm just sitting here with my jcrew-perfect hair, drinking a british milkshake and listening to jolie sing "darling ukulele."
photo via j.crew
i'm used to people getting up from the table and walking away when i want to talk about something "serious"
5.29.2009
amen, amen, amen
been listening to Howard Zinn's A People's History of the United States. this is a MUST READ. i've learned about certain events that he mentions throughout his book in some of my history classes. i think it's a fabulous book for anyone who wants to know our history. it's essential, and it's cheaper than spending thousands of dollars to get a degree in history to get this perspective. below is an excerpt that i thought was especially poignant:"It is very important for the establishment, that uneasy club of business executives, generals and politicos, to maintain the historic pretention of national unity in which the government represents all the people and the common enemies overseas, not at home, where disasters of economic sole war are unfortunate errors or tragic accidents to be corrected by the members of the same club that brought the disasters. It is important for them also to make sure this artificial unity of highly privileged and slightly privileged is the only unity, that the 99% remained split in countless ways, and turn against one another to vent their angers.
"How skillful to tax the middle class to pay for the relief of the poor, building resentment on top of humiliation.
"How adroit to bus poor black youngsters into poor white neighborhoods in a violent exchange of impoverished schools while the schools of the rich remain untouched and the wealth of the nation, held onto stingily where children need free milk, is drained for billion dollar air-craft carriers.
"How ingenious to meet the demands of blacks and women for equality by giving them small special benefits and setting them in competition with everyone else for jobs made scarce by an irrational, wasteful system.
"How wise to turn the fear and anger of the majority toward a class of criminals bread by economic inequity faster than they can be put away, deflecting attention from the huge thefts of national resources carried out within the law by men in executive offices.
there is much to be done. and it can be done.
image via here.
the beauty of the desert is like no other
5.20.2009

cj and i spent a few days in the desert of southern utah,
courtesy of SUWA.
we met people from new jersey, illinois, idiana, wisconsin, minnesota, colorado, california, and utah.
all of them understand the importance and history of this land.
we want to preserve it for you
and for future generations.
"this is what is wrong with us, we are bleeding at the roots."
5.13.2009
i have been falling in love with terry tempest williams' new book: finding beauty in a broken world. i have to share some of it with you. you're going to love it too--because you're all such lovely and compassionate people, yes? well, i think so anyways. discussion nights...
4.09.2009
The People's Bribe
3.12.2009
With liberty and justice for some...
3.11.2009
Peaceful Uprising
2.27.2009
Please visit Peaceful Uprising's web site to find many articles about things like coal energy, civil disobedience, and much more!
I hope some of you will take action...I'm feeling discouraged these days, and would like some help in making the world better!
Friday Issue: For the Love of Money
2.20.2009
In My Perfect World...
2.18.2009

This post is more like a diary today. So many things on my mind. It will be long. I hope if you take the time to read it that it might just spark some questions of your own. I don't have all the answers. I don't think anyone does. We just do the best we can, and try to truly love everyone yes? I'd prefer you didn't comment here (but if you must, you must)...I hope this provokes you to blog your own "In My Perfect World" post.
1. There would be no "inflamatory" rhetoric...let me explain. People would not call women who get abortion murderers...because you have no idea what suffering that woman has gone through, or might have yet to go through. People would not make fun of each other for their beliefs--religious or non-religious...when it comes down to it, we're all human beings trying to do good deeds. People would not use words such as "liberal", "conservative", "socialist", etc to degrade each other...we should probably learn what all those terms mean anyway...you might find something you like. Do you follow me?
2. Environmentalism would be seen as the virtue it really is. We would realize that we truly are stewards of this earth...that the earth is alive...that it symbolizes so much...that consumerism is killing the earth and everything on it.
3. We would value true simplicity, and be more productive, rather than consumeristic. Health and happiness does not depend on how much we have? How many times do we have to hear it before we believe it? Oh, to live the simple life!
4. We would know our neighbors, and support them. We would take care of each other in times of need...bearing each other's burdens. How do we bear each other's burdens when we don't even know each other?
5. Everyone would have a garden, and a nice little house to live in. We don't need monster houses in urban sprawl areas. We just need small little houses, and food to grow.
6. We would welcome disagreement and discomfort in all its forms. Everyone would have a voice everywhere.
7. Lobbyists would disappear from politics and government. Will people like me ever have a voice?
8. We would all know who we really are, men and women, and that we could all live our dharma (life-path).
9. Crying would be encouraged. Anger and pain would be allowed. Silence would be revered.
10. Intuition would be valued more than intellect.
11. Emotions would be just as important as politics.
12. Stars would be more visible at night (no more light pollution).
13. Everyone would know what stage the moon was in on any given night (if you want to know, it's waning at the moment).
14. Our lives would be slower...we could go on casual walks, read books, and talk on the front porch.
15. There would be opposition..."perfect" does not mean without problems and trials. People would still disagree with me (but kindly, please), and people would want things differently than I would.
16. I could teach. I could write. I could sing. I could dance. I could laugh. I could cry.
17. We could all choose where we wanted to live.
18. I could disagree with you...with reverence.
19. Professors would listen to students, and listen to their hearts as well...and students would listen to their professors and their hearts as well.
20. We could all be part of a fellowship.
21. There would be lots of storms and change.Your turn
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