i had a lot of ambition this morning: the plan was to read a dense article and read a 120-page book...
doesn't look like that's going to happen now--something i can't put my finger on is distracting me.
do you ever have those kinds of days? like day-dreaming mixed with goal-setting mixed with anxiety.
it's one of those days where i'm trying to reach down into the depths of myself and figure out
what's really going on in there...what does a heart really want, and how does one get it.
day-dreaming: ceej is in italy today enjoying snow in the dolomites. i see photographs of such a magical landscape and want to be there, not here with my ambition. i want to be there with my dreams: a book store, writing, and workshops. these photographs here are of our last evening in the lake district last summer. what an incredible land. no wonder romantics such as william wordsworth lived there. inspiring in a sort of way that makes it necessary to write, to question, and to live.
goal-setting: finish school...and another degree. actually write dreams/goals on paper. find that confidence, that bravery. talk with your professor, and admit fears because somehow once that is done the fears dissipate. remind myself that school is something i enjoy...it's not something for me to prove how smart i am, because really i'm there because i'm in love--in love with history and literature.
anxiety: there's always a to-do list with ambition. ugh. am trying to remind myself that it truly is all about baby steps. i'm trying to cover up all of the steps except for the one immediately in front of me. i can do that one. i can read an article and a book in a day...still.
so, i'm off. to do step number one (read, read, read); to day-dream of living in a land with a pulse; and to give my anxiety a dose of deep breaths and a peppermint chocolate.
15 comments:
oh these images! so so dreamy!
I can't begin to tell you how talented you are. It's almost heart breaking. Weird, huh? I don't know why. But it pulls at my heart strings to even be blessed to have read this post. So true.
Me too I just love your words xx
I'm in the same little, leaky boat. It's hard to be right at the end of school with so many mysterious, shiny things just ahead in the future. I figured out I get more done when I write a schedule for my to-do list; it doesn't always go as planned, but it's something to keep me accountable.
what finely crafted boats, images, words. . .
!Warm Aloha from Waikiki
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lot of encouragement ... you'll see as finally you reach all your goals ... of course, these photos of the lake has a magical atmosphere, they are really beautiful.
Right now, I'm enjoying my last free days until I'm going back to everyday life on monday. I'm doing a traineeship one year before my bachelor degree and I'm more than a little nervous.. How will the people be, how the work?
I wish you a successful day!
What gorgeous shots - I love the old wooden boats so much!
I have days just like you described where it feels like your body can't keep up with your mind's ambition. Oh well, that's what new days are for. And peppermint chocolates of course!
xo
cortnie
Très jolies photos !!!
those boat images are haunting...
hope the anxiety dissipates!
hope you don't mind I pinned this on pinterest (with attribution and a link back). If you want me to remove the pin, I will.
I do have those kind of days! Actually, I had a whole week of those kinds of days. It's really soothing to hear you describe it so well. Maybe I should do that the next time too, instead of trying to ignore it. Great post!
Amy,
Pin away! Thanks for including a link :)
"How is it possible to feel nostalgia for a world I never knew"?
The Motorcycle Diaries
Your beautiful images give me that sense.
Lovely.
The location of the photos is gorgeous, beautiful shot of the boats <3
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