it's true. i too go nuts. and i love it. who cares if promises are broken, or whatever mr. eliot experienced.
i find that spring is always a burst of mighty gusto and determination...just the push i need to get going.
today as i've been happily studying and working i have
been simultaneously day-dreaming. my favorite time to dream.
every word i come across on a page has so much weight.
i wonder how i can use this word, and how this word or that sentence might help me.
i send off a handful of emails reaching out to people who have
traveled the path i hope to travel, and i'm so grateful to strangers who are eager to help.
just a few months ago i would have been afraid of reaching out,
worried that i would appear like a weasling "networker."
but oh how i assumed wrong! people are amazing, and i'm learning so much.
can i tell you how much i love barbara kingsolver? can i tell you how much i love saying
"who cares?!" to any platitude or quote taken out of context?
my past self would have squirmed at the idea of contradicting a poet i revere and love so much,
but ms. kingsolver has consistantly given me permission to slash through those nice little quotes
that i find so often pasted shamelessly on almost every page of the interweb.
(i too am guilty! i mean, obviously i love a quote that speaks to me...but i definitely reserve the right to tear it apart two weeks or two years from now).
this spring i think i have surprised many with my new direction,
but those who have been such good friends recognize that this direction
suits me best, and are my biggest champions. hooray for people who
have seen you all along.
so what's the big idea? more grad school...a joint degree that involves an mba.
yes, business. the more i tear down my archaic ideas of business the more i find
that it is the perfect creative and effective path for me to pursue. as soon as i made
the decision all sorts of opportunities have presented themselves as i've worked
hard to put myself out there and study my brains out. things haven't necessarily
"fallen" into place--it's just been somehow "easier" to work hard at something
that feels so natural. and now i'm just trying to keep up...while still scheduling
15 minute power naps into my afternoon...