thirty : i am so ready for this decade

tomorrow is the big day...thirty! i've kind of been waiting for this birthday

because i've heard such lovely things about being in your thirties:

more confidence, no more messing around, slowing down, etc.

it's going to be a good year. i'm already feeling thirty,

and i usually don't feel any age. but i think thirty is my year.

this past year has been incredible. mostly because i've learned that i can

obtain the biggest most "out there" dreams i could ever dream:

i finally got to go to oxford...and i met with success there,

so much so that i'm going to work towards getting a phd there.

it's quite an incredible feeling once you've reached a big goal in your life,

it makes all the other "big" goals seem that much more possible.

i've also learned this past year that you're never too old:

at the age of 29 i started playing the violin...me and the 3-year-olds,

and i love love love it. it's lots of hard work and can get frustrating,

but i think i'm making some good progress now.

i've learned that i'm not too old to figure out what i want to do in life:

it took me nine years to get my undergrad degree;

it will take me four {maybe five} years to get my first master's degree;

another year or two for a second master's degree;

and finally three more years for a phd. 

i'm just going for it. no matter how old i am...

and if i change my mind later, it's never too late.

i let go of a lot this year. it feels good to let go.

i chose the things dearest to my heart and i'm giving those

things all of my attention...i'll let the rest of you be 

artists, seamstresses, crafter-extraordinaires, designers

and i'll enjoy everything you create and do.

i'm content with school, writing, music, and ceej.

i'm content with truly simple food, simple clothes, and a simple house.

oh, hooray for thirty! it's good to feel content & that dreams do come true.

ceej is taking me away tomorrow for a weekend in the mountains.
should be a good birthday indeed.